” This dream isn’t feeling sweet
we’ re reeling through the midnight streets
and I’ve never felt more alone…
it feels so scary getting old ” – Lorde, Ribs
With each new day, i feel as if i am moving further away from the person i was, slowly drifting towards the unknown in an ocean of blue. I turn 30 this year, and recently spent a day sifting through photographs from the last 10 years… 10 years that have gone so godamn fast, yet has felt like an eternity.
i look at the girl in the photos, now, as if she was a stranger. different hair, different clothes, different life … but the same eyes. familiar, in a world that is now unknown to me.
I really thought that by now i would have mastered the art of having my shit together, cooking fabulous meals in a beautiful house… But instead I’m avoiding doing the dishes, and shopping around for thai food, because, ordering the same thing from the same shop, more than 3 nights a week is just a little embarrassing and Im laying in bed eating bowls of ice-cream. and lots of it.
can be a tough gig out there you know. sometimes living simply, just isn’t really that easy…
BUT on the upside, the sun is shining, the ocean is blue, the sun will set and the moon will rise
everyday is a new day, and is a new chance to make life yours.
for right now, for this moment – don’t worry about what will be in 10 years, because chances are your life will never be as you imagined it.
you cannot predict anything, so enjoy it for what it is.
ride your bike, go for a midnight swim, run through dark streets, love passionately
and most of all be kind to yourself.
and … if all else fails, i have a spare spoon and a freezer full of ice cream.
Wearing Katies ombre Denim Shirt, White Shorts via Piping Hot – Available at Target